2017 in Review

What a year it’s been.

Since 2017 is going to end, I find this to be a great time to reflect on what’s been happened in this year so far. For me it has come with many accomplishments and surprises. And happily, I experienced few disappointments. Here’s the list of all the good things that happened in 2017:

Travelling?

I don't call myself as a travel junkie, since I have so many boundaries, like yeah, you know, money and time. But yes, it's true. I do love travelling. It always yes for travelling as long as it possible.

Kadang saya sering bertanya sendiri dalam hati, apasih yang dicari dari perjalanan-perjalanan ini?

Karena seringnya setiap perjalanan saya selalu dimulai dengan susah payah. Ibarat kata, belum mulai tapi udah capek duluan. Nyiapin perlengkapan (yang udah kececer di rumah Surabaya dan gatau dimana tepatnya), pulang “teng-go” dari kantor dan dilanjut macet-macetan di Jumat sore dari Tangerang menuju meeting point (yang biasanya di Jakarta), tired and sleepless, curi-curi tidur selama perjalanan, harus pipis di alam, or the worst, toilet yang kotor dan pesing. Kedinginan, masuk angin dan berujung pada muntah-muntah di gunung. Balik Tangerang Senin dini hari dan harus clock in sebelum 7.30 pagi, ditambah dengan after effect-nya badan capek dan kaki kaku selama 3 hari kedepan.

Human Beings

I think it's been a long time since the last time I wrote in this blog. Janji sama diri sendiri buat rutin nulis satu minggu-satu post akhirnya dilanggar juga. It's been a tough week. Kerjaan, dinas luar, pindahan kosan, dan masih banyak lagi kegiatan lain yang bikin buka laptop di weekend jadi hal yang haram dilakukan. But right now, let's talk about life. People say that life is not meant to be easy.

Have you ever feel down? 

Happy Graduation, Adikku.

She never thought that in the end, she would be fine.

She would make it. 

I know exactly that it was a very delicate chapter, it's never been easy. 

The Accident

21 Oktober 2017. Tepat satu tahun yang lalu, something bad happened. I don’t know why I write this story, I just want to remind myself that I have a lot of things to be grateful for.

21 Oktober 2016. Aku masih ingat betul rincian sebelum kejadian. Saat itu Surabaya sedang hype dengan event Book Bad Wolf, pameran buku impor murah, yang saat itu baru pertama kalinya diadakan di kota Pahlawan. Aku dan Mba Amel berencana untuk pergi kesana di hari kedua event tersebut dimulai. Since Mba Amel punya Nayla, yang saat itu masih umur 6 bulan, kami harus berangkat pada malam hari, nunggu Nayla tidur, baru kita bisa berangkat.

Introspeksi

Jakarta, 16 September 2017, ditulis dengan kepala dingin, ditengah tumpukan kerjaan di weekend yang cukup panas sampe harus nyalain AC.

This past 3 months was sooooo tough. My life has been roller coaster ever since. It went up and then down, up again down again, upside down, then slowly up. I should admit that life truly hit me hard on the face. Merantau sendiri ke Jakarta, putus sama pacar, deal with new people (of course with different personality), kewajiban menuhin KPI kantor, dan masih banyak lagi lainnya.

I’m not strong enough to face this, karna aku bukan aspal apron (apasih). I cried, a lot. My life was so messy. Kamar berantakan, makan gak teratur, sekalinya makan cuma makan mie instan sama boncabe banyak (faedahnya apa), tidur mulu (literally bisa tidur 15-17 jam sehari pas weekend), menarik diri dari kehidupan sosial, balik kantor malem mulu padahal ga jelas apa yang dikerjain, parah deh pokoknya. It much worse than you can imagine.

Seasons of Love

One of my favourite love story written by Marissa Anita entitled Seasons of Love. Go check her website, you won't disappointed :)

Source : https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/2/29/Autumn_in_Dresden.jpg

Falling in love feels so good.

It’s that feeling when cupids pierce you with their endorphine-laden arrows. There is no other way but up even when things may you bring down. You have no time to feel blue as you fill your mind with the thought of him or her. His coo. Her laughter. What ecstasy.

#DearMe

Dear Me,
I'm the new you.
Someone who much much much better than you before.
It's been long time since we don't talk to each other.
How was your day? I hope you're doing well.

I heard you like a bad boy.
That boy who act like he don't care about you, which makes you try harder to make he like you.
That boy who wouldn't reply to your text until later on, which makes you wait around and miss him more.
That boys who act distant from you, which makes you try harder to get his attention.
That boy who know he can get a lot of girls, which makes you more afraid to lose him.
That boy who would show you he's interested one day then act different next day, which makes you too confused to make decision to leave him. Less, which makes you stuck and not being able to move on just because you care too much to him.

Has anyone ever told you that you deserve better than that? I'm sure you probably have, a lot.
And you know what? It's about time to realize that.
If  that boy like you, he'll meet you halfway. Simple as that.
Don't settle for a bad boy when you deserve a good man.

Sincerely,

The new you.

Someone told me, "Rough time is like chewing gum. The more you chew, the more tasteless it will get. So what you do if you're chewing a tasteless gum? You spit it away, then eat mentos from kembaliannya Indomaret"

Alone

I like being alone.

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like going to a bookstore alone.
I like riding motorcycle alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child,
a girl with her lover,
or a friend laughing with her or his bestfriend,
I realize that even though I like being alone,
I don't fancy being lonely.

Secangkir Kopi

01.26 am

"It has been said that we need just three things in life : something to do, something to look forward to and someone to love"

"Dia indah, meretas gundah, dia yang slama ini kunanti"

Malam memang tidak pernah terlalu malam untuk membuka laptop dan membuat sebuah postingan di blog. Apalagi ditemani secangkir kopi dan lagu Teman Hidup-nya Tulus. Lalu ditambah dengan banyaknya pikiran yang hilir mudik di kepala. I'm not a caffein lover, semenjak lambung bermasalah dan gak pernah tahan kena kopi. Tapi entah mengapa malam ini sedikit berbeda. Saya hanya ingin terjaga lebih lama, memikirkan beberapa hal yang belakangan ini terjadi di kehidupan saya.

#20FactsAboutMe

Been trending topic on my instagram's timeline lately, so here my #20FactsAboutMe :D

1. I love my family to the moon and back
2. Anak kedua dari empat bersaudara, tapi kalah berani dari adek ketiga
3. Cuma ayah yang manggil 'ulvi' dari lahir sampe umur 20, lainnya biasa manggil 'upik' atau 'upi'
4. Keliling Indonesia will be come true
5. You can't separate me from susu stroberi-nya frisian flag
6. Chocolate and ice cream get me hyperactive lately

Magamon

Magamon. Bukan, itu bukan nama sejenis monster yang jadi musuhnya power ranjes. Magamon disini berati mahasiswa gagal move on. Semacam sebutan, atau sindiran lebih tepatnya, buat mahasiswa yang gak bisa-bisa move on dari mantannya. 

Sebenernya apasih move on itu?

Move on sendiri kalo sebagai adverb, dia didefinisikan sebagai :

1. to go or cause (someone) to leave somewhere

2. to progress; evolve: football has moved on since then.

3. (psychology) to put a difficult experience behind one and progress mentally or emotionally

Bertemu dalam Ketidaksengajaan

"Nobody is perfect, until you fall in love with them"

Rencana Allah selalu indah.

Saya selalu berusaha untuk meyakini hal ini dalam setiap langkah hidup saya. Termasuk dalam hal jatuh cinta dan dicintai. Betapa Allah telah menyiapkan skenario yang begitu indah. Andai saja saat itu saya berangkat lebih dulu, andai saja saat itu Anda memutuskan untuk tidak bergabung... ah, berandai-andai memang indah. Pun bertemu Anda. Mengutip tweet salah seorang sahabat dalam sosial medianya :

"Tiap yang datang pasti memberi arti, pun yang pergi pasti akan memberi pembelajaran tersendiri"